aku tak phm...

Aku tak paham nape org suke berjanji n tidak tunaikan. Selalu cakap tapi tak buat. And the best part nye, bile die salahkan org len sbb org tu ingtkan balik kat die pe yg die dah lupe. Aku yg xphm org ke org yg susah nk phm aku..aku rase aku dh ckup simple utk org dekat yet people still thought that I’m too hard too understand. Tak cye tnyelah kat lelaki yg penah rapat ngn aku..lau pompuan tu aku rase okey lagi la..
Aku ni senang jer sbnarnye..lau janji ngn aku, means kene tunaikan janji tu..lagi satu aku ni once dah syg kat org, mmg aku syg giler kat org tu..dlu aku ader la perjanjian with this guy that I knew since form six. Syg tu mmg tahap xingat la. Tp pas die masuk uni, die makin jauh ngn aku, n the answer very simple, “saya busy la”. “semua org berubah”, “saya dah xsame cam dlu”. “masing-masing ada tanggungjawab”.
Aku rase aku pun masuk u jugak, ader keje jugak. Tapi still ade mase utk cari die n everything. Ohh yea, maybe aku sangat senang n lapang time study dlu kot. Bile tnye the same answer keep repeating. And yes, I understand the statement and what do I do is move on with my life. But is it hard to juz send me one sms atleast to say how are u? rase cam per tau, aku rase cam dipinggirkan or dilupakan. Over? Sensitive? Or exaggerate? I don’t know. U tell me.
He’s right. I’m not a priority in his life. Actually I’m no one in his life. Well, he doesn’t need me. He has frens, he has girlfriend. Even though he told me that he never forget about me, but action speaks louder than words man. This crap that I wrote is juz to throw out my feelings that bother me lately. Why is it I’m the one who take the initiative to ask him out, to msg him. Am I that stupid to understand or I’m too blind to see. And of coz this guy is not my boyfren but he special to me.(I don’t about he felt about me?) does the word kakak means so much to him or its juz a word. “kak mad, saya tak penah lupe kat kak” rase cam nak pgg janji ni, tp makin hari makin pudar sbb dah rase jauh sgt. And I missed my “brother” so much.


*ignore the grammatical error*